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GOD.

i really need a life here:(

been holding in so much tears these days..
dont even feel like talking to anyone else anymore..
i wish there was just someone i can talk to though..
someone that'd understand.

how i wish..

and how i wish i can actually speak anything in my mind out in english without having to translate it in my head first.
yeah.that really sucks.;(
and how i wish i dont feel this way right now.

i wanted to cry..because i miss you..
yet i cant find the reason why..
i know you like someone else..
but yet i'm stupid enough to think that i like you..
i know all i need is time.
but thats the only thing i'm lacking now.
school, hw, activities..
all brainless stuffs..(mostly==)
by the time i reach home i was so tired i dont feel like doing anything else anymore.
gosh, sometimes its like i dont even have the time to think anymore.

i just wanna break down and cry..

hahahahaha...

i'm a lame, boring, pathetic, useless and lifeless loser :D
yes, i know.


i know:(

better;)

gah..

school still kinda sucks..
and h/work still pilling up..
but the good news is i'm happier now :)

i guess all i needed was someone to talk to..
some chocolate ice-cream..
and a whole lot of my five babies;)


thanks for everything shinki..
i WILL keep the faith eternally!!!!!

SAD

nothing seems to feel right today..
:'(

pointlessss

i need a life.
and def more time..
too many school stuff and homeworks..
i cant believe its already been 3 weeks..
seems like all i've been doing is write, eat, sleep.
yeah.
i havent come online for so long..(until today==)
and i havent laugh full heartedly for a long long time already..:(

i still got so much work left.
i want to finish is asap.
but my mind is to confused now.
no mood.
why cant people get that?

life is so bullshit right now.
i tired.
my eyes are so sore..
and my running nose is killing me!
BUT..
i still have bio left..
and still have to go to school tmr and stayback until 4.
wtf?!
i know right?==

gah.
so lifeless here.
i am such a boring person oO
and i cant believe i havent notice that until now.

oh well,
i shall go sleep now.
i think.==


always keep the faith!;)

tired

yes.
yes i am.

tuitions, homeworks, activities.

i need more me time.TT

and definately need more sleeping time.

i want my old life back.
i cant handle such 'hecticness'.==
they say form 5 is supposed to be the best year.
well, it's only been one and a half week and i'm already half dead.
more lifeless than ever.
goodness, everyday of school feels sooo long...
i feel like it's been months already!
ugh, still not in the 'study mood'.
i didnt even feel like talking anymore.
cause talking requires energy..
and my battery is wearing out.
and not to mention my loss of money..
i have to stopped buying canteen food.

gosh, i feel so old.
and scared.
and pissed.
and sad.
and tired.

it's complicated, i know.
well, conclusion is, it has only been like 8 days of school, and i'm already tired of it.


sorry for not being able to catch up with you guys shinki,
now even forum is betraying me..TT..i wont let me in.==
oh well..

i still got 2 essays to write, bc and english.
and my head is empty.
no idea, no mood.
blahhh...

shit, tmr gt that fatass's class.
fkingbullshit.
and have to stay for some library eeting till 4..
oh please..now is like wed to fri until 4pm..

why oh why?TT


yunjaechunsumin, i miss you guys:'(
always keep the faith!

the last first day of school

didnt turn out so well.

i feel like a form 1 again..so lost..
and i dont have a proper classroom.
and the person sitting next to me might be trasfering.
i already have add maths homework.TT
english gna be taught by Ms. Yeow..I just hope my english can pass now.
stupid school rules are pissing me off.
and i SERIOUSLY DON'T BELONG IN 5 ORKID!
gosh, not to mention how tiring today was..
i came home and slept for a total 5 hrs before i can get up again..
man, how the hell am i going to survive for the rest of the year then?!!!!!!!
i wish i can just go back to form 4..
4mawar may seem like a boring class to others,
but i personally like it quite alot.
i mean linlei's there..and frilla's there..
and it's such a 'strategic' place==


so yea.
too late to regret for studying so hard for last year's finals.

just for your info, i DEFINATELY CANNOT score straight As..
and i'm OBVIOUSLY NOT the hardworking type.
i'm happy if i can get 6a's or above :)
so you might wanna reconsider keeping me in that A class of urs..
:)

first;)

oh gosh..where should i start?
xP

spent my christmas eve at genting in the hotel with fam..
surprisingly, it turned out to be quit well..
i guess you can have fun too when you're with your fam.
well, sometimes anyway.==
and rushed back on christmas day just in time to catch shinki take the best album award..
i would have cried if dad wasnt sitting there..
what yun said was so touching..TT..
we cassiopeias love you too, shinki!:')

1226 was shinki's 6th anniversary..
all i remember was looking back at their past videos that i've downloaded..
including mirotic con in seoul..
i wish i was able to see a mirotic con that was in msia...:(
dont worry, i'm hopeful that their will be more concerts and anniversaries to come!
6th, 16th, 26th, 36th, 46th, 56th, 66th, 76th, 86th, 96th...
shinki will always be here!
and until then, i'll still be a true blooded cassiopeia!;D

okay..my english is getting worse nowadays..
and my brain feels kinda empty too..==
sorry for the cacatness..TT

anyway, mon went to reunite with The Fridays :D
went cheong k in red box..had LOTS of FUN:D
sorry to have to mafan them with the ic thing tho..(><)
and vikki..you watch you aa3 ady ma? how was it? xD
okay, so after that had dinner with sooann and thienyik..
then watched AVATAR with mum and bro..in 2D..==
i'm NOT a fan of sci-fi..but man, i LOVED that show..oO
okay, maybe love is too strong..its more like LIKE la..
well, conclusion is... it nice :)

the next two days passed by real quick..
its as is the whole world skipped that 2 days..
it just went pass me like that..just like that..OO

anyway, spent my new years eve with wen and aunt..
i cant believe i actually start this year in a CINEMA.
watching ALVIN AND THE CHIPMUNKS 2.
while sipping FRAPPUCCINO..OO
yeah..that's definately a first for me..
and you can even hear the fireworks outside when you're watching==
bt its a nice movie..
ADORABLE :D
lovee lil theo the most..XD
still can believe it's voiced by jesse mccartney tho..==

went to ou to shop with fam yest..
ahaha..bought a pair of shoes and some makeups..;P
its about time i use some to cover up my true ugly face..:D

and i recently found out that i have this sleeping problem.
that is i cant sleep until its morning..
like 7 or 8am..==...
then end up waking at 4 in the afternoon..
its been going on for 2 days now? yea..

well and just for your info..
i started my new year with a fall in the cinemas while walking..==
and after that spend the whole night crying over shinki vids..
my babies..TT
yea, such great ways to start a new year..

okay, school reopening soon..
VERY SOON.
and so is spm..coming wayy too fast.
no more coffee and chocolates for you during midnight, zoey.
and def no more internet!(><)

and did i mention that i recently got addicted to this youtube guy named dave days?
haha..yea..he's kinda lame..but i just LOVE his voice..OO
ok, i shall stop now:)


oh well,
HAPPY NEW YEAR btw.^^
wish you the best of luck in year 2010!
and rmb to always keep the faith.